GOLD DUST
SECOND PART
Translated and abridged from French by E. L. E. B. Edited by CHARLOTTE M. YONGE
VII
"Learn of Me, for I Am Meek and Lowly of Heart"
This is a simple rule of life for me, requiring no more than I am able; but I feel it unites me to God, makes me more devout, more faithful to duty, more ready for death. Since I have made it my rule, it has been to me a source of consolation, enlightenment, and strength; and yet God alone knows how full of pain my life has been!
Dear friends, who, like myself, long to become holy, I commend this sentence to you in all its simplicity; listen, for it comes from the loving Heart of Jesus, it fell from His gentle Lips:—
"Learn of Me, for I am meek and lowly of heart."
I. Be Meek
1. MEEK TOWARDS GOD
Living from day to day beneath His Eye, and where all things are ordered by a Divine Providence.
As carefully as a mother arranges the room where her child will pass the day, does God prepare each hour that opens before me. Whatever has to be done, it is His Will that I should do it; and in order that it should be done well, He provides the necessary time, intelligence, aptitude, and knowledge.
Whatever of suffering presents itself, He expects me to bear it, even though I may not see any reason for it; and if the pain be so sharp as to call forth a cry, He gently whispers, "Courage, My child, for it is My will!"
If anything occurs to hinder my work, anything goes contrary to my plans and projects, He has ordained it so on purpose, because He knows that too much success would make me proud, too much ease would make me sensual; and He would teach me that the road to heaven is not success, but labor and devotion.
With such thoughts as these all rebellion is hushed! With what peace, what joy, our work may be begun, continued, interrupted, and resumed!
With what energy we reject those enemies that assail us at every hour,—idleness, haste, preoccupation, success, want of perseverance under difficulties!
Does the past sometimes rise up to trouble me with the thought of the many years spent without God?
Ah! no doubt the shame and grief are sharp and keen, but why need they disturb my peace of mind?
Has not God promised His pardon for His blessed Son's sake, to all who truly repent and unfeignedly believe His Holy Gospel? Have I made a full avowal and entire submission? and am I not willing to fulfil whatever I am advised in God's Name to do for the future?
Does the future in its turn seem to frighten me? I smile at the foolish fancies of my imagination; is not my future in God's Hands?
What, when all that will befall me to-morrow, next year, ten years, twenty years hence, is ordained by Him, shall I distress myself with the thought that it may not be good for me!
Lord! be Thou my Guide, and choose my lot as may seem best to Thee!
2. MEEK UNDER ALL CIRCUMSTANCES
Events are messengers of either Divine goodness or justice.
Each has a mission to fulfil; and as it comes from God, why not let it be accomplished in peace?
Painful, heart-rending, though they may be, they are still the Will of God. Watch them as they come, with a little trembling, perhaps even terror, but never let them destroy in the least degree my faith and resignation.
To be meek under these circumstances, does not mean awaiting them with a stoic firmness which proceeds from pride, or hardening one's self against them to the point of repressing all trembling. No! God allows us sometimes to anticipate, postpone, or even when possible flee them; at any rate, we may try to soothe and soften them a little.
The Good Father, when He sends them, sends at the same time the means by which they may be endured, and perhaps averted.
Remedies, in sickness.
Love, in trouble.
Devotion, in privations.
Comfort, in weakness.
Tears, in sorrow.
God has created all these; and knowing perhaps that I may fail to find them, He has given commandment to some privileged servants to love, console, soothe, and help me, saying to them,—
"Inasmuch as ye have done it unto one of the least of these My brethren, ye have done it as unto Me."
Oh! welcome then the friendly voice that in the midst of trouble speaks to me of hope; I will receive with gratitude the care that affection presses upon me.
With thankfulness I accept the time devoted to me, privation borne for my sake; and I will pray God to bless these kind friends, and ask Him to say to them words such as these: "All that thou hast done for Mine, I will repay thee a hundred-fold."
3. MEEK TOWARDS OTHERS
This may seem even more difficult, for it so often appears to us as if others were actuated by malice.
But how often it is only the result of temperament, pride, thoughtlessness; seeking their own pleasure without a thought of the harm they are doing me; then why be unhappy about it? I need only to be on my guard.
Never stand in the way of others (when it is not the case of a duty to be fulfilled), and if they sometimes are an obstacle in yours, remove them gently, but do not harm them.
Yielding, submitting, retiring, giving up, this should be our conduct towards the members of our family, and those we call our friends.
The more facility you give them for doing what they think right, the more you enter into the feelings they have of their own importance, leaving them a free course of action, so much the more will you be likely to be useful to them, and retain your own peace of mind.
It is astonishing how those we never press open their hearts to us!
Do not try to examine too minutely the actions of others, or the motives that actuate them; if they are wanting in tact, appear not to notice it, or, better still, try to think they have made a mistake.
The best remedy for the dislike we feel towards any one is to endeavor to try to do them a little good every day; the best cure for their dislike to us is to try to speak kindly of them.
Are those around you wicked? be cautious, but do not lose heart; God will not let them harm you.
How easy for God to stay the consequences of slander and calumny!
God is the shield, interposing between others, circumstances, and myself.
4. MEEK TOWARDS SELF
This does not imply self-complacency, self-indulgence, self-justification, but simply encouragement, strength, and fortitude.
Encouragement in some wearisome, monotonous, unrecognized work, with a thought like this: "God is watching me, and wishes me to do this." This labor occupies my mind, perfects my soul, and shields me from mischief.
Encouragement such as this, in the midst of sadness and isolation, when no one thinks of us, or gives us the smallest token of sympathy, "Is not my duty sufficient for me? God requires it of me, and it will lead me to heaven."
Strength to rise again after some failure, some humiliating fault, some depressing weakness; rise again lovingly, confidingly, and with the thought, "Never mind, it is a good Father, a kind Master, with Whom I have to deal." Confess your sin, humble yourself, and while awaiting the assurance of pardon go on with your daily work with the same zeal as before.
Fortitude against the desertion and forgetfulness of others.
We have two things to fortify us,—Prayer and Labor.
One to cheer us,—Devotion.
These remedies are always at hand.
II. Be Humble
I. HUMBLE WITH GOD
Resting always in His presence, like a little child, or even a beggar, who knowing nothing is due to him, still asks, loves, and awaits, feeling sure that hour by hour, in proportion to our need, God will provide all that is needful, and even over and above what is absolutely necessary. Live peacefully under the protection of Divine Providence; the more you feel your insignificance, weakness, sickness, misery, the more right you have to the pity and love of God.
Only pray fervently; let your prayer be thoughtful and reverent, sweet and full of hope. The poor have nothing left to them but prayer; but that prayer, so humble, so pleading, ascends to God, and is listened to with Fatherly love!
Do not have a number of varied prayers, but let the "Our Father" be ever on your lips and in your heart.
Love to repeat to God the prayer that Christ Himself has taught, and for His sake is always accepted.
Look upon yourself as a hired servant of God, to whom He has promised a rich reward at the end of the day He calls life; each morning hold yourself in readiness to obey all His commands, in the way He wills, and with the means He appoints.
The command may not always come direct from the Master; it would be too sweet to hear only God's Voice: but He sends it by means of His ambassadors; these go by the names of superiors, equals, inferiors, sometimes enemies.
Each has received the mission (without knowing it) to make you holy; one by subduing your independence, another by crushing your pride, a third by spurring your slothfulness.
They will, though fulfilling God's command, do it each in his own way, sometimes roughly, sometimes maliciously, sometimes in a way hard to bear ... what does it matter, so long as you feel that all you do, all you suffer, is the will of God?
Do your duty as well as you can, as you understand it, as it is given to you; say sometimes to God, "My Master, art Thou satisfied with me?" and then, in spite of ennui, fatigue, repugnance, go on with it faithfully to the end.
Then, whether praise or blame be yours, you will, good faithful servant, at least have peace.
2. HUMBLE TOWARDS OTHERS
Look upon yourself as the servant of all, but without ostentation, or their having any knowledge of it.
Repeat to yourself sometimes the words of the Blessed Virgin Mary: "Behold the handmaid of the Lord," and those of our Lord, "I came not to be ministered unto, but to minister;" and then act towards others as if you were their slave, warning, aiding, listening; abashed at what they do for you, and always seeming pleased at anything they may require you to do for them.
Oh! if you knew the full meaning of these words, all they signify of reward in heaven, of joy and peace on earth, how you would love them!
Oh! if you would only make them the rule of your life and conduct, how happy you would be yourself, and how happy you would make others!
Happy in the approval of conscience, that whispers, "You have done as Christ would have done."
Happy in the thought of the reward promised to those who give even a cup of cold water in the name of Jesus Christ; happy in the assurance that God will do for you what you have done for others.
Oh! what matters then ingratitude, forgetfulness, contempt, and scorn? They will pain, no doubt, but will have no power to sadden or discourage.
Precious counsel, inspired by Christ Himself, I bless you for all the good you have done me!
When first those words found entrance to my heart, they brought with them peace and strength to stand against deception, desertion, discouragement and the resolute will to live a life more devoted to God, more united to Him, more contented, and ever pressing onward towards heaven. Once more, I bless you!
Precious counsels, enlighten, guide, and lead me.